For You

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

No, I definitely did not take any Random gums today :P

This may sound poetic.
This may sound insincere.
This may sound fabricated.

But in my defence,
These words reside in my mind;

my fingertips itching to write it down.
I owe someone this much. Probably more.
Albeit the little voice at the back of my mind that says,

"Hey, never mind that. Time will clean this up.

You don’t have to do this."
Despite the laughter we go through after it,
I know I had to write.
I want you to know, writing this is never an obligation.
I know what I have done cannot be undone.

Know that, while you may feel all the things you felt right now,

I never meant it to have caused this.
Know that, I have tried in every possible way to not hurt you.
Know that, I never meant to make you feel any different.
Know that, the times spent with you were never a façade for something else.
Know that, I am terribly sorry for what I have caused you to feel.
Know that, it is my arrogance that led to what had happen.
Know that, in the deepest of my heart, I will always love you.

For you are the sunshine of this little place I call my second home.
For you, without your smiles, without your spontaneous amazing wit, are not you at all.
For you, the real you, are the one whom I missed the most.

If I were to turn back the time, will I be able to do it differently?
Then if things were different, will I have learnt something?

The truth is, I am afraid of losing you.
The truth is, I am begging for your forgiveness.

For I know, what I’ve done craft a fissure within you,
And words unspoken might eventually engrave a grudge.
And I never want it to take precedence between us.

When will all of this be truly over?
Allah knows.
And with His Guidance, I’d say, let’s ride this over together.
InshaAllah.

P/s: Please come back. I miss you!